| | been doing the blogging thing of late, because it's pointless being cryptic. kind of shying away from being exhibitionist as well (tempering my streak! haha), so not that many photos either. should i even apologize? heh. i think this is the 3rd or 4th time i've said i was gonna do this, but i'm really thinking of stopping blogging altogether. that, or moving to some other site.. maybe not.
i have a great life. so damn great that when i write about it i feel like i'm boasting. and i don't really wanna do that. and when i start whining, i feel like i shouldn't have any reason to whine whatsoever. and the truth is, in real life, i am one hugeass whiner because sometime shit happens and it can get a bit overwhelming so i, uh, start whining. ironically, it's logging onto xanga and starting to type a rant that gives me a little perspective, and all i can say is thank God for the backspace key and the back button.
right now M and i are trying to figure out what "no balls" is in hokkien; how are we this useless?!
i had an existentialist crisis once, and then i resolved it by deciding that not everything in life needed to have a point. but now increasingly when i do things or want to do them there's the question of whether my activities of choice are meaningless. but honestly, after pondering for about 5minutes, all i can think of is that i can't wait to grow up and get busier so i won't have the time to think about shit like that.
more and more, i feel that education, while essential, is terribly overrated. more often than not it makes a lot of us arrogant pricks, at some point in time or another.. all the time for some. random late night insomniac thought, sorry.
maybe i'm blogging because i handed in my last assignment for the semester, though class continues for the next month or so. i'm now also a published writer, and work continues till i leave for new york so it's not scot-free for me just yet. i don't wish it though, writing gives me a chance to get out more. my base state, i've realised, is pretty sedentary.. unhealthily so. i'm practically married to my macbook pro and am actually pretty fine with staying under my quilts and not stepping out all day. i think next year i have to live near a park. random thought again... but it has much to do with my antisocial tendencies.
if i had enough cash in my bank acct, i would be off to arnhem in the netherlands for the fashion biennale. 10,000 sq m of city transformed into fashion paradise, watch me salivate and die.
i realise that this post is quite morose. so, on a brighter note, i'm headed back to good ol' brown for the time of my life this thursday and i am so excited that i'm irritating. and when i get back, the other M, my darling M, will be here.
that, and i'm in love with a fabulous man. a rare pipsqueak from my normally uneffusive impersonal self.
okay! off to write more stuff.. the work never ends.
obligatory photo for you lazy asses who always bug me for them because you don't want to read:
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